What a sad day!!!

 

What a sad day!!!!

 

This morning at around 11am, I received a text message from my sister that my grandmother’s sister passed away just about 30 minutes ago. I called up immediately my mother to confirm it. I think they want to hide or not to tell me right away the situation, because they know that I’m leaving in just few hour going on my vacation to Boracay with my friends. My grandma’s sister or “Apeng” (which what we called her instead of real name) is much closed to my heart and to my family. She’s the one who take care of me when I was young. His family live in my grandparent’s house that time before moving out to Sta. Maria in Laguna. I cant remember the dates because I’m still young at that age, I think I’m around 4 years old and I’m not in schooldays. During may vacation in school, I always go at their place and stay for the whole period of summer. Lots of childhood memory still fresh on my mind during my stays their. All I just remember that my last spent of summer there is around 1996 or 1997. After that no vacation there anymore, just a visit once in a year or sometimes as in no visit. My last visit to them is last May 2008 together with my sister. We spend overnight before going back to Lumban.

 

It’s a sad story that she suffer from a breast cancer I think started last 2008. We brought her at the hospital but refused for an operation. I think that time she think that she’s already old. How many times that my family and relatives convince her for that operation. Last October 2009, her daughter “Ate Ning” text me regarding her situation that she doesn’t eat and in pain. “ Dina daw sya makakain at may nararamdaman na sakit”. I replied to her that I will visit her soon, but I failed to do it but my mother and some relatives do it for me, they went there for a visit. Last May 2009, his sister passed away also. She didn’t make it to see because of her condition.

 

Now, I apologize for not seeing or visiting her for a long time……it’s my fault.

 

I had a real story, I dream last night regarding “Apeng”. She’s in pain and I can’t remember what were talking about. “Nanghihina na sya that time, parang nagpapasama sya sakin somewhere around their house. May ibinibigay sya sakin pero hindi ganun ka klaro ung story nya. Meron daw nagpapahina sa kanya, I can’t remember kung tao or something else at kailangan daw iyon makuha at maibalik sa kanya”. That’s my dream all about. It so weird and lots of question. I just remember that dream just right away after I knew that she passed away.

 

I’m in a big question for myself right now. I had schedule going to Boracay today at around 12 in the midnight. We will take RORO land and sea traveled with my friends. What should I do now? What is my other option? We all know that we have beliefs in life. I can’t think anymore!!! My mind is in doubt!!! Help me………to decide.